91.7kg/68kg - 23.7kg left to lose
My second weigh-in post. I should have done it many times before but somehow didn’t manage to keep up. I tend to stop doing things halfway out of laziness. So anyway, this is the past week’s weigh-in result.
Current Weight: 91.7kg
Weight Left to Lose: 23.7kg
Long overdued
I know I promised myself that I would write weekly. But this post is just way overdued. Well, to bring myself up to date. I’ve currently lost about 2.5kg. More or less. And to tell you the truth. I’m bored of going to the gym 3 times weekly. It’s just taking a toll on me especially since I’ve been going to the childcare center daily.
The children there are truly a spoiled bunch of brats that I’ve ever seen for a group of pitiful children staying away from their parents. In fact, they’re all so spoiled that I’ve taken off my cap to the social workers and childminders working there.
*Sighs* how I long to go back to the days before the internship. I’ve lost most of my weight at the childcare center actually…I’ve been losing my appetite these past 2 weeks thanks to those children. I don’t know they are going to make it out in the world if they don’t learn the ways of the world while they’re young.
These children have totally no respect for elders, no respect for other people’s things, no respect for themselves, in fact, they have absolutely no respect for anything. Not only that, they lack leadership skills, follower skills, responsibility, or any other skills.
What with that hovering over their heads, volunteers from far and wide have no sense of responsibility towards these children. They come and go as they like. They are, to the children, like Santa Claus every weekend. The volunteers breeze into the childcare bearing gifts and joy, happy to see the children smiling, they leave feeling happy and proud to be the bearer of those smiles.
What they don’t know is that, doing what they did just helped make the children feel special and spoiled all the more. After that, they give hell to the adults working at the childcare. Needless to mention, the children are living a heck of a better life than I ever did. They have good food, clothes, a roof over their heads, and people who come to visit them bearing gifts. All I had were bare necessities and a strict family upbringing. Not that I’m complaining of course.
:/ spending time with them is just taking a toll on my life. After the internship ends. I swear I’ll only visit them maybe once or twice a month. More than that and I’ll go into major depression…
Wedding eve party
Went to my cousin Alan’s wedding party for family and friends.
I would definitely love to say that I was a good girl and stayed off the food and walked more than I sat.
Sadly, I was guilty of all accounts. I ate a big helping of noodles, fried rice, chicken curry, roasted chicken, some jellies, and a corn pie! And when I got home, I binge on 5 slices of bread lathered with Kaya and Butter.
I know how that sounds right now, but I swear, it doesn’t look as much as I mentioned! But I feel awfully guilty now for eating so much. I can’t bear to look at how much weight I’ve gained this week due to my misjudgment in eating. Not to mention the wedding celebration tomorrow!! The breakfast banquet AND the wedding dinner.
I don’t know about weddings in different cultures, but Chinese weddings? Talk about food galore! I don’t know how I can resist!
But somehow, I know I’d find a way to wiggle out of a plan to not eat a lot. Maybe I should just eat regularly during the day and eat less in the night.
Yes, that’s a good idea…I should do it!! I hope I can, that is u.u!!
Wish me luck! And have a wonderful night yourself!
Monday Blues
I’m bushed! Just got back from the gym actually. Did some cardio and some hand and leg lifting.
I also just started on my high protein diet today. Did you know that protein burns more than carbohydrates? My nutritionist informed me that when you eat carbohydrates, it’s only possible to burn half of them whereas the other half just becomes fat. Protein on the other hand, is burned up as you go through your daily life.
This was what my nutritionist had to say YEARS ago. So I don’t really know about now.
Lately, my mom have been digging up old issues of Reader’s Digest, one of it dated December 2006 has an article on “Lose Weight Naturally - 35 ways to make weight loss a part of your daily life”. So I’ll be signing off soon to read it. I’m sure it’ll be mind opening and may help me learn more of losing weight…naturally!
Other than that, I remembered sometime back, I was way addicted to computers. So what I did was, stick myself to it daily and ended up…5kgs less! So today, while I was at work, I had to do some statistical job the whole day - which was boring as heck, and it truly burns my eyes 
!! - and will be continuing to do so for another 2 months. By that time, I would hopefully be few kgs lighter! And blinder too!
Oh how it BURNS!!
Enough of the chit chat, I gotta go take my bath now, yes, I haven’t had my bath yet after my gym session. I feel so ewwy !! After that, I’m gonna settle for the night and snug in with my reader’s digest 
Good night, and if you’re striving to lose weight like me, stay strong!!
93.9kg/68kg - 25.9kg left to lose
I have always dreaded the weigh-ins whenever I look at the scale. For some reason, it puts in mind Garfield and his obnoxious talking scale. Mine definitely talks to me when I step on it…hypothetically. If I happened to gain “LYKEOMFG! You’re FATTER now than you were 2 minutes ago!!“, and if I did lose some “you call that losing weight?! More like letting out the gas.”
I’m serious! 
Anyway, now, I have made it a point to check my weight on Sundays. A final tally of the week in a way. Just to see the progress or the lack of progress I made throughout the week. If I’m positive enough, I might be able to lose a kg per day. if not, then I had better do better the following week.
I swear, at times, I’m too overly confident of myself and tend to think that I can lose it all within 2 months. Which is totally not true. Research have found out that if you lose more than 1 kg per week, your body will find it hard to keep up and you’ll be left with awfully saggy leftover skin. Nightmare indeed!!
So yes, taking it slow is the key. Exercise and diet too, actually.
Next Week’s Itinerary
Monday: Workout at the gym. Going on a high protein diet.
Tuesday: No workout.
Wednesday: Workout at the gym with a trainer from 9pm to 10pm. Going on a high protein diet.
Thursday: No workout.
Friday: Workout at the gym. Going on a high protein diet.
Saturday: Attending a wedding. Too bad I still can’t wear beautiful dresses
Sunday: Weekly weigh-in.
-Looks longingly at dresses online- Ahh…one day, one day…
The first step…
Today marks the first day of my new blog regarding my weight loss attempt. To transition from my imperfection to perfection. This is my first step to walking the long journey to a better me. I am going to state my goals, reasons, and plans.
The IMPERFECTIONS
Weight Issues:
Starting Weight: 94.3 kg
Goal Weight: 68 kg
Weight to Lose: 26.3 kg
Goal Rate of Loss: 3 kg per month
Time to lose weight: 9 months
Appearance Issues:
- Pimples, black heads, white spots;
- Do not know how to apply makeup;
- Have no fashion sense thanks to current weight issues.
Personal Issues:
- Low self-esteem;
- Unable to muster the courage to talk or make eye contact with strangers.
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Phew! That’s a lot of issues mentioned up there. First things first, all my issues stem from an origin and that origin is rooted at my weight issues. So instead of tackling the other issues, I’ll have to start working on my weight issues first.
I don’t know exactly when I started being overweight. But I do know that when I was a child, I was like every other Asian children…small sized. Until of course, I went into primary school. It was when I was in Standard 4 that I realized I’m bigger than the other girls my age. At first, I thought I was just more developed compared to the others but after a while, even that backfired when my friends started to develop in the chest and having slim waists.
Of course, when it comes to reasons, I have plenty of them for wanting to lose weight. First off, staying in a typical Asian country, finding some proper fitting clothes is entirely impossible. Theres always an XS and no XL when you happen to stumble upon pretty clothes. I can’t even fit into the pants that are for people my size, thus leaving me to wear my father’s cast off jeans. I’d love to wear sexy heels but are only sexy if you have tall slim legs to wear it on. I’d like to wear sleeveless shirts, sexy dresses and not feel ashamed by my flapping flabby arms. I’d like to be able to love myself and the skin I’m wearing in this lifetime.
Secondly, because I am ashamed of my own body, I find myself lacking in people skills. I am afraid to talk to people, unable to speak my mind when I want to, unable to be myself whenever I’m with my own friends. Seeing my friends who are tinier than me, I get self-conscious about my own weight and tend to avoid being with them all the time which, if I say so myself, is destroying what social life I have left. It really is as mortifying as it sounds.
Losing weight sounds like an easy thing, but it’s hard, especially in the beginning. At first, I thought, “I should start working out on this weekend,” and then it changes to “maybe I should start Monday, should start at the beginning of the week instead of the end,” followed by “I’ll just start next month, make it the first,” and ending with “I’ll just put losing weight on my new year’s resolution list.” Doesn’t sound that impressive huh? Well. I guess starting now is as good as any.
And lastly, I want to live healthy. I’ve always been the sickly child in my family. Even now, my body isn’t functioning well in terms of my monthly courses and I tend to have a fever every other month and coughing my lungs out every other day.
The only reason why I really am going to start now is because about a month ago, my mom took me to a free spa offered by TrueSpa which is affiliated with TrueFitness. One thing led to another and I somehow got lured in by them for a full 5 month program.
One month is about to pass soon and only now did I think of making a blog out of my whole weight loss thing. But better late than never, methinks.
Basically, I workout at the TrueFitness gym 3 times a week and get a trainer to make me work my butt for at least once a week. There are all sorts of machine there, like the threadmill, stepping machine, basically everything that works the whole body to the bone.
So I’ll be starting my weight watching right now for the next 4 months. Hopefully something good comes out of it…and when it does, I might even continue this gym idea into 2009 instead of only up to early December 2008.
If I say I can, I can…hopefully
